My art ~ I'm down to the last week.....so much stuff to do but suddenly, virtually everything is snapping into place. No complications for the most part and the universe seems to be insync with me. I'm sorta impressed though I don't know why I should be. I know better. Go with it Diana.
About a year ago I had a dream that Pierre and I were sitting at an outside cafe talking. Of course I was beside myself with glee and just wanted to hear from him how much he loved and missed me. I was a little disappointed with the dream that all he could really say to me was "Diana, time to get creative". It's one of those dreams that I woke up from, and I ALWAYS pay attention to those. To me, those dreams mean something.
A year later, I am creative. I'm so frickin' creative I don't remember a time in my life, except when I was 12 that I had so much drive to create. It's a lovely feeling and I don't want it to end, though I gotta say, I am missing my sleep. Even when I was in Art Center I got my 8-10 hours sleep. EVEN in Finals week. Nothing comes between that. But this push to the CCA it's been different and I love it.
I'd like to say it started 7 years ago when he died, this lack of creativeness, but it was before that. I was just in the lack of Who I Need To Be, though for all seasons there are things we give energy to and I don't regret a single ounce I gave to him or his beautiful girls. But now, 7 years later I have nearly an entire yard of champions, 2 Tevis buckles, a beautiful place to live and it's a perfect time. I thank Pierre a lot for so many things I can't even blog here and I know he lets me know he's close. When I got to the hotel at the Claremont shows, the next morning I was washing my hair with the hotel shampoo. It happened to be the exact scent of the fragrance I bought for our first date and wore nearly every day those first few years. Not only was it the anniversary of his death, I Am Creative. I take this as a sign he is with me even in another form and he and my other loved ones are helping with insyncing this final push to get me thru these final, jam-packed days. I may have said this before but I am thankful and "Life is Good".