Thank you for all of your wonderful comments on this blog, private emails, phone calls and seeing you in person regarding Ali'i & my Tevis completion. This was such a long and personal journey to ride this race with the horse I love more than life itself and to be able to share it with you has made it even more special. And that is what friends are for. To be a part of each others glory and disappointments in life.
I remember the first time I heard about Tevis. I was living in Agua Dulce in a single wide trailer with no electricity. I had my answering machine hooked up to a car battery and food in a cooler. It was bliss. I had horses finally, my "Lambie Pie", chickens, ducks & 3 collies. I picked up a horse magazine one day at the feed store and there was this Arabian going over Cougar Rock. The horse's name was RT Muffin. It was around 1986. I read about Muffin and this 100 mile race and I was hooked before I even finished the article. I could feel that this Tevis Cup was huge and to be a part of it was already ingrained my soul, even though it took some 25 years to get there. It is a weird and wonderful disease and I was a groupie for all of the 25 years. Until Saturday.
I had an big rose grey Arabian gelding named Asil who was out of the Polish Stallion Elimar and he was a HANDFUL. He had bitten me, kicked me in the face and I was terrified of him. In the right hands he probably would have made an incredible Tevis horse but I had to finally sell him because I couldn't get over the fear. And it was of dying in his presence. But in my innocent mind he was my first "prospect". I could see me tailing him up the canyons in that race.
Years went on, horses came and went, but my obsession with riding this race never left me. I found my farrier Ed and the highlight of him coming to shoe my horses was that I could talk Tevis with him for 6 hours straight every 6-8 weeks. I never tired of his visits. He was my personal link to the race I ached to ride. He glowed and more so when he spoke of Tevis.
There were so many obstacles that got in the way of training for this event. I got married, had horses that were supposed to work out but didn't. I got divorced and rode my first 50 miler with Sabi and placed 19th at the Sunland Ride in 1999. The next year I rode Tahoe at the Hog Wild Ride 50 starting the race with Ed. Tahoe ran away with me for 4 miles at the start, and I thought for sure I was going to die. My hands were bloody from trying to hold that horse back. It was Asil all over again. I finished that race with Tahoe in 31st place in 112 degree weather for 12 grueling hours of riding. I couldn't walk for a week and didn't ride him for 6 months. He was NOT the Cadillac Ride that Sabi was. But, I still wanted to do Tevis. Just not on him.
Sabi came up lame at a race that my ex-husband took him to the next year and later on he was diagnosed with ringbone and declared to not be able to do anything except trail ride. Because of his diagnosis, I learned about barefoot and healing my horse. During this time I was with Pierre and we were so busy with our lives and raising his daughters that the horses were put on the back burner. They were ridden mainly by his daughters. Had I known what I know now about ringbone and other hoof and leg issues, I should have continued to condition Sabi as I believe he would have been sound. He's 20 now and a wonderful pasture pet and fairly reliable trail horse. He was my first "official" Tevis prospect and I think would have been a wonderful horse to do that race. He was sensible, comfortable and has a very low heart rate.
In 1998 I had foaled my first Arabian, the parents being a Khemosabi daughter to a Khemosabi son. The resulting colt was my beautiful Khemali'i. I wanted a pretty horse, with a brain and my goal was to train him for endurance and ultimately Tevis. Ali'i was played with, had Alicia on his back, had saddles on him, bits in his mouth but I still took my time with training him. I was so busy with my life with Pierre I really didn't do much with the horses for 3 or 4 years. Tevis was the furthest from my mind during this period of my life. I also was dealing with boot issues because I didn't want to shoe anymore and to find a reliable boot that would actually stay on was next to impossible. I used to say if I had to shoe, then endurance wasn't for me.
When Pierre was killed the life I knew was gone in an instant. That Saturday after he died I received a phone call from my cousin Cheryl who is also passed now. I wasn't taking phone calls from anyone with the exception of our Sheriff, and our CA Governor but I took Cheryl's call. Lori told me she had to speak to me. I got on the phone and she said "Diana I don't know what this means but I need to tell you. I was ironing and heard a voice that said 'Diana, ride the horse.' Do you know what it means?" It was such a weird phone call because I rarely spoke to Cheryl and she knew very little about my life. I told her that it meant that I had had a horrible fall (Pierre's death) and that I needed to get back on the horse. And, that I needed to break Ali'i. It was something I never forgot and Ali'i went into training that June. My loved ones on the other side knew how great this little horse was and I need to train him. He really was my saving grace. What a great little Arabian.
I think the saddest thing for a person is to not have a passion in life. It doesn't have to be riding 100 miles on cliffy trails in mountain lion country. That certainly takes a certain type of insane person to want to do that. But to me, having passion for my life and for being involved in something that is really bigger than me and my horse is what makes my life worth being here. That is bliss.
When we talk about emotion, how can someone not feel something as great as their greatest accomplishment? We are emotional beings and whatever causes that spirit to rise and exude from ourselves is what being alive is about. We all have those dreams to accomplish whatever they might be and to be true to ourselves is our duty. Anything less is death of our souls. This is what I believe. So thank you all in feeling with me. It's special.