I don't know what got up my butt to write, but I have missed blogging. I am going to keep my blog on restriction as I really don't want a lot of people to peer into my life anymore. So, if you were given a password you are one of the chosen few who have access and may still be interested in reading.
So much has happened in the last 2 years and most of it has been so incredibly wonderful. I made the decision to break up with Tony and that was LONG overdue, by about 7 years. There were other reasons to stay with him that long, and I still had enjoyed so much about my life, but when it came to him, he just did not walk on water in my eyes. In fact most of the time I couldn't stand to even be around him and my soul was literally dying. We had too much stuff tangled up with this house, and then of course he was VERY possessive and jealous, so for me to bring up ending the relationship was just a big cluster-fuck of emotions from him (more than me) and then he'd try harder. That always set me off because I couldn't stand when he was like that, because it wasn't him. He just seemed to be faking it because he was too insecure to realize we were done and to let me go.
Luckily I was able to stay strong, and get through a restraining order against him, a lawsuit, him draining of the oil in Winnie which ruined the engine, (luckily my insurance covered) and trying to keep Bill out of as much drama as I could. I remember when Bill & I were first together I asked him how things were for him and he said as long as the drama didn't continue and it wasn't innate with me, he was good. He luckily saw beyond all of that and stuck with me. I just really love the man.
The last 2 1/2 years have been filled with so much fun, laughter, road trips and camping. All of the life I have enjoyed with Bill is what I was dying from being with Tony. So, I have learned you can find love again and you don't have to compromise. There are too many beings out there ~ you just gotta let the universe know exactly what you're looking for. It does work.
Currently I am taking an Elementary Photography class at Sierra College. It's sorta like what I took in High School, but with digital cameras I had forgotten how to take a photo manually. I've been able to pull out my Olympus OM-1 film camera and we started taking photos today. The above photo is actually just a leaf laid on the photo paper to get an image. Assign. #1 is complete. I'm excited about the rest of the class and am hoping it inspires me to work on getting photographs that advance what I am doing with Bill & Rene at endurance rides. I want to make a contribution of my art and right now it's with a camera. It's really fun.
The collies are all good. Ivy has a major win, Sage & Kai also have major wins with minors. I am waiting for the fall shows to see if I can finish Rani who lives in Auburn with a wonderful family. The horses are good, for the most part. Khaliq comes home next week after being with a trainer for 2 months. She's an incredible animal and beautiful as you all know. I'm excited to get started on her endurance conditioning. Slowly but surely. Tevis is in our future.......
So that's it for now. I can't believe I just blogged.